Kody and Meri Brown's romantic relationship is dunzo.
In a sneak peak of the TLC show's three-part special kicking off on Sunday, January 30, via Entertainment Tonight, the reality star, 53, reveals what went wrong in his relationship with his first wife, 51, and why there will not be a reconciliation on the horizon.
"There's just nothing to talk about, really," Kody explained. "Listen, there was a hardness in our marriage that was so difficult and so antagonistic. I didn't know why we were in it."
"It took a long time, a lot of counseling, as we go through all of this for me to finally go, 'Meri, I just don't see us getting back together,'" the patriarch heartbreakingly revealed to host Sukyana Krishnan.
"And why aren't we getting back together?" he asked, before adding, "Because we will go back to the way we were before. There's just no chance that I ever want that again."
Merri and Kody — who recently split from third wife Christine Brown — married in 1990 and share 26-year-old daughter Mariah. They legally separated in 2014 in order for fourth wife Robyn Brown's children to be legally adopted, but were spiritually still married.
When questioned why he didn't leave the broken relationship before, Kody stated, "It's a double standard." He continued adding of his four past and present wives, "They can leave whenever they want, I can't."
As OK! previously reported, Meri revealed in a recent episode that she no longer feels like she is part of the family or like she has a husband.
"I am an outsider, Robyn," she told her fellow sister wife. "Am I a sister-wife when I don't have a husband? I have a husband, technically, but do I? ... It's weird. This isn't the family that I signed up for."
